Busy, busy

I feel a little better now, but I’m just really stressed. I want to relax and sit in my room and do nothing but I don’t have the time.

My head is one big mess and I don’t really know how I feel.

-          I wish I didn’t had any plans the next week

-          I wish I didn’t have to go to my friend’s party later

-          I wish I hadn’t eaten that ice cream

-          I wish I had done better at my exams

-          I wish I knew what I wanted to do with my life

I wish for a lot of things. I’m really stressed out about the fact that I have no idea what I wanna do the next year. We have to turn in our university applications by the 5^th of July = really soon. And I don’t know if I wanna study math or psychology. I’m not sure I can get into psychology. But I’m not even sure I wanna go to university, maybe I just wanna take the year off and work and try to figure out what I want.

I have some serious thinking to do. (I really suck at that! Damn)

I should start getting ready to my friend’s party. I really don’t wanna go cause I don’t know anybody there, except my one friend, and she will be pretty busy. I’m so bad at mingling with strangers, it’s horrible. I seriously think I’m socially retarded. I never know what to say. I either get a) really quiet and then really uncomfortable or b) really drunk and way too comfortable. I guess I just have to suck it up.

I don’t know when I’ll be able to post again. Tomorrow we celebrate our graduation all day. And Saturday I’ll be going to this festival and it last more than a week. So it might be a while.

Maybe I’ll write some more tonight if I‘ve got the time.

If not, take care of yourself and thank you for being here!  

Waaaaait, I forgot something really interesting. I bought an epilator and I just tried it. It actually doesn’t hurt as much as everybody says. I think it’s pretty great!